My passion- God

Time flies so fast! It's the 21st already. January has been exciting because God never fails to surprise me with the things He could do, tiring for so many different reasons every day, lovely for the doors He has open for me, unlovely when yucky things happen such as getting sick.

Anyway, I thought of doing a January wrap-up post but I don't think I can. It'll take forever literally.

So here it begins. =)

1. Do you know the status update we type on facecbook is so powerful? Guess you won't know coz it made me fall sick. Because of this sentence- "Rescue me from the boat of complacency." I couldn't believe it that I fell sick and still am after 1 week because of that one sentence! Well, the reason this happen is not because of a status update but a real heart's cry to not stay in the comfort zone where all is so nice and comfy (which I tend to like)... And now what the Bible says that the devil is prowling around like a lion looking for someone to devour. Guess he found me... To summarize it, yes it affected my life- falling sick is not nicee ok?, my mood etc.. But God allowed this to happen to teach me that though I'm in the midst of my own problems, God taught me to look at other people's needs and pray for them. And of course, to always be alert and pray.

2. God has opened a new door for me for my future career. I failed my Grade 8 piano's practical last year. Hence, I have to re-sit. But it does not stop there. God has turned my failure into a blessing in disguise. Because I failed, I had to look for another teacher coz my current teacher just gave birth and her schedule is so pack according to her. I trusted God that He knows which is the right one for me coz He's the one that reminded me; surely He has a plan for me. Anyway, I called my ex-piano teacher who owns the piano school to ask if she could accept me as a student again (quite embarrassing honestly). I quitted that piano school in 2005 because of PMR. My ex piano teacher told me years ago that she will hire me when I finish my Grade 8. I never thought of this to happen coz I quitted last time. But God brought me back to her. Right at Grade 8 (re-sit). God certainly has His own sense of humor. HIs timing is always, always James Bond's timing. chun~! I'm planning to work coz I have to pay off my education loan on my own (parents MIGHT help in the future) and I plan to work as a tuition teacher or/and a piano teacher as side income even before I graduate, only if it's God's will. =))

I've always, always wanted to work, but God never allowed me to work. Once when I asked Him can I work, He gave me an answer which is, "You have no time."- which was true. Other times, no peace in my heart. Last semester precisely, I thought I could look for a job for 2 weeks and I won't have problems going there coz my brother works at Pyramid. I thought God allowed me. Off I brushed my teeth. All of a sudden, my eyes began to itch. I just touched (haven't even rub) and it became red. Sigh.. So I know it's not God's will for me to work yet. Those jobs at Pyramid pays RM5 per hour. Poor brother honestly. And God reminded me, you cannot serve both God and money. conviction. ouch.

Deep down I've always know that God has a different plan for my life, somehow. He directs my path. I know God always wants to bless me and every child of His abundantly, only if we will obey His voice. I've always remembered what my friend Jessica shared in LYPG. Being obedient to God means when God says you run, you run.. When He says you stop, you stop. When He says you eat, you eat. You fast, you fast.

You can never buy God's voice with money. To me, hearing God's voice is sooo precious. Hearing (and feeling) what's in His heart- the pain, the joy is invaluable. No matter how rich you are, you can never buy God's precious voice. God taught me to listen to His voice, to always check in tune with Him. Hear His directions, His will. This is what I call EXCITINGGGG!!!!! Maybe this is what keeps me passionate about till this day. Though I have to clearly say, hearing God's voice is not only for me. And it does not suddenly happen. The more you desire to hear from God, spend time with Him, love Him with all your heart, you will definitely experience them.

Till then, cheers!

I. Stand. In. Awe.

I was just looking back at the pictures that I have in facebook. And as I kept looking from one picture to another, my heart just stood amazed. So amazed at the hands of God, His faithfulness and His presence in my life. Beginning of last year 2009, I recalled God gave me an impression while praying. I saw a balloon that just kept expanding and expanding that it grew very very big; bigger than my whole self! And God gave me a forward 'notice' that He is going to expand me, stretched me. Throughout the year, He spoke to me reminding me to not fear, but step out and I will soar. I didn't realized He expanded me more than I knew of probably coz there's so many things that just kept happening, that I didn't had much time to reflect. All I know was there's something challenging as each month or even weeks passed by!

Worship leading for church's main service was probably one of the craziest thing I've ever said yes to last year. I cried for hours negotiating with God with every reasons like I can't sing so well etc. But in the end, I know God has a plan. A plan I do not know. I am fearful, I admit when it comes to worship leading. But through it all, as I've grown from strength to strength and from church service to service, I've seen how God used people who are available and willing to trust Him when He calls. God will never call us to do something which we cannot do.

Moving on, this year has been a very special year to me as God started putting a passion or desire to pray for Malaysia. It all happened one day when I asked God what He would like me to pray. And I started praying for Malaysia. Tears rolled down my eyes as I felt God's heart, and thus I know that the nation is where the heart of God lies. Not that God cares more about the nation more than us, but God has such great plans for every country, including Malaysia. I started attending Local Youth Prayer Gathering (LYPG) on Saturdays. *Please check out the LYPG video on the side of my blog! And come? =))*


Oh how I remember after a few times attending, I wanted to stop going. But the night before LYPG, God said He wanted me to go. And how much struggles I had in finding transportation. I often asked my mum but she's busy on Sat. My dad does not like to be involved in Christian activities as he's not a Christian. So, I went to sleep telling God, that it's not that I don't want to go now, but I've no transport. The next morning as soon as I just opened my eyes, God immediately spoke to me to go. I was confused and scared but all I know is when God says go, I really need to go, no matter what. He'll surely provide the way. True enough, Holy Spirit asked me to ask my dad and surprisingly my dad agreed to take me. The following week, the same scenario of God asking me to attend on Friday night, but mum said no coz she needs to do marketing, the next morning God spoke to go again. And on that day, my dad will be passing by Kelana Jaya around that hour to go to Sri Damansara (if I'm right). So from that onwards, I knew God wanted me to join LYPG. Not only that, God provided a way for me to go- dad (most of the time) or mum(depending). No matter what I'll be there. And it was a start to a journey of searching my heart's motive, catching and feeling God's heartbeat, feeling God's heartpain, listening for His voice and direction, conviction of our sins and loving God more and more. It has certainly been one of the major highlights in my life. Attended MYPG 3 @ Alor Setar, hearing God speak to me again through Richard Rajoo, Yoshua etc. Not forgetting ThePlan09! Can't wait to see a lasting youth missions movement taking place in Malaysia, seeing youths catching the fire to be God's armies. A year God arranged for me to cross-pathed with passionate Christian youths especially. Exciting, exciting! With a vision that is so great.


Studies wise, all I can say is praise God! A GPA of 3.5 and above for all my 3 semesters in this 2009 is definitely God's favor, mercy and faithfulness. Oh how many times I thought I wouldn't have made it. 2010 results?? Gotta put in more effort though and God will see me through again, confidently.

Serving God in youth, church and CF has been increasing more and more. CF Camp, SEGi Revolution P.A.R.T.Y and WiFi youth camp, worship teams etc... Not forgetting the opportunity to be part of the worship team for Global Day Of Prayer 2009 again and ThePlan09. God has always believed in me, even when I doubt myself. He's a cool, super cool God! <33

Relationships.. I think I hardly touch on this in my blog. lol.. Well, I'm glad I wasn't into any relationship this year, otherwise I would have missed out on the many great things He has for me this year. Am still waiting (for "David- a man after God's own heart").. with a deep confidence that God has the best for me. =) And my focus should (will) always be serving God first. My verse(I mean God's verse): Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all other things shall be added unto you. Help me to wait patiently for the awesomest guy You have for me, Father God. Amen! =))

All in all, I'm humbled. So humbled that God would want to use an ordinary girl who doesn't have much to offer in terms of talent, resources like me. But I began to learnt that God is not scouting for talents and all, He's looking for an individual that is always available for God to use any time, any moment. God really does look at our heart, more than any other!

Will 2010 be another busy year for me? What has God put in my heart for this 2010? 2010 will be 3Bs- Better, Bigger, and Brighter. I pondered and questioned, was 2009 not so bright for me, that 2010 will be brighter? lol.. As I think back, yeah, that there were times when things or incidents that happened that weren't so bright. But whatever it is, I believe that God has a purpose for everything that happens in and throughout my life.

This year's theme for my life is to be a light and perfume for Him, carrying His presence wherever I go, that I might bring others to know Him. (which I realized was aligned to my church theme this year: The Church in Many Places; not jsut in church but wherever we are. We are the Church itself!) And a few watchouts- not to let $$ to cause me from slowing down in serving God. sigh.. And to remember God does not just look at my 'righteousness'.

Much ahead for 2010! God bless each of you who reads my posts! Cheers!

Ohana means family. family means... nobody gets left behind or forgotten =)

People often ask me what I have been busy about..

Well, my Intercultural Dance performance and booth set up was one of th many. Below is my group's dance performance which we've been practising almost every day for the month of late Oct, Nov and Dec last year. Do check it out if you'd like to. The one at the sidebar can only be viewed half. So yeah. Praise God for the pretty good responses we've received! Halleluyah!

Groupie! From left: Christine, farah, Sharmisttha, Melissa, Staci, Reynolds

Working as a group is not easy. There were good times, conflicts etc but I thank God coz He has placed each of us there as a group for a purpose. I began to see the strengths and also the weaknesses of each of us.

Christine- She's a brave girl. She'll get whatever she wants and whatever she needs, in her own ways though. She knows how to use whatever she has to attain it. She is a good dancer and a real good choreographer. Cheerleading, dancing is her thing.

We got a sponsorship from Sunway Group for our costume, thanks to Christine. =)
Background pic was Sunway Lagoon, trying out our costumes.

Staci- She's creative, full of ideas and thinks thoroughly before carrying out something. A very busy girl who is in charged of the college's UIU's Fayette House. A brilliant girl who carries herself well in socializing with people.

This is one of the many creative ideas of Staci's. Credits to Staci.

Reynolds- Well, also another brain in this group. He reads alot and is knowledgeable. Thus, he got the responsibility to read a book on the Portuguese Settlement for one of our presentations and summarize it for us. He is always ready to contribute whatever is needed for this group. He carried packets of ice on the day of the booth and performance by BUS ALONE!

Farah- Fuh.. A natural dancer. No dance classes or any background in dancing, and she dances really well. Like really, really well! Though she often has transportation problems in coming for practices, nevertheless, she danced well on that day. Proud of her!

Sharmisttha- Gorgeous is one word to describe her. haha. The kids you see in the video/pics are her cute tiny lil cousins. The flowers you see at our booth are borrowed from her mother. She's also one who's like a natural dancer. She shakes her hips really well, so pro. Don't believe, look at the video. (orange shirt!)

Melissa- Yours truly.. Not for me to say. =)

I want to thank Cheng fee Vien, the girl below for coming on that day to support me and also, to see how it's like where Intercultural Comm will now be her subject the next sem! Thank you for being supportive though you often have transport problems, but you still came! THANK YOU, FEE VIEN!!!

Below are some shots taken with other group members who did a brilliant job too in making this event a success!

Another of our group photo with the kids. Farah is missing! Behind is our booth.

That's all for now. Take care!

Masquerade

This is my movie making project done for my last Movies Class under Ms. Jaime. It may or may not be the best among the best, but still...

WELL DONE, TEAMMATES!!!

We've worked together so efficiently that we finished it in a day! But what really amazed me was we've not only worked together as a group but also with another group. We helped each other and for instance in this video, the one and only other group helped us in shooting the video, following us wherever we go, patiently re-taking scenes again and again, and also in contributing better ideas. Thank you for your time, effort and friendship!

x

Blessed Happy New 2010!

I've never feel so relaxed the whole year (since 2009 started) till a few days ago! Seriously. I'm outdated.. In movies, even shopping and what not. Anyway, just a simple and short update.

1. Sunway Pyramid with cuzzy wuzzy cousins (and bro-short while) YESTERDAY, 30th Dec

2. Sunway Pyramid again TODAY (am not complaining ;p) with bestie and Denise

I've never found such awesome shoppers that has pretty alike taste in fashion clothings and most of all, can walk as fast as I do while shopping from store to store! Awesome lah. ;) ahaha.

As I close this year, I want to thank God for first of all, being my God, my Saviour, Bestest Friend, my Listener, Comforter, Encourager and lots more. Thank You, God for every single thing though there were times I disobeyed You, times I forsaken You, times I disappoint You, broken Your heart... but I want You to know (and I know You know) that I LOVE YOU, FATHER GOD. Knowing You, loving and serving You was the best (bester, bestest) thing that has happened to me! I'm forever Yours. =)

To my friends out there, I'm sorry if I've hurted you or offended you in any ways. My most sincere apologies. Thank you for standing my me watching me fall, grow and also encouraged me all along the way. You are the best. I may not have thanked you or showed my appreciation whoever you are, but I've learnt that good friends are real hard to find! Thus, I treasure every single good friend that I have like crazee! Ppl say, diamonds are a girl's best friend. To me, best friends are even better than diamonds. No words can describe whast best friends are to me. Soo sorry if I've made you feel 'geli'. But whatever it is, thank YOU!!! =)

*now I cut the ribbons signifying the closing year of 2009* *cut*

BLESSED HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 ALL!

Watchnite Service @ church coming right up. I mean, NOW. =P

more. than. life. could. bring.

Blessed Christmas everybody!!!

May you find hope, joy, love and peace again this season of Christmas! May you find your true home and purpose.

Christmas season is always a busy season where finals are here, camps are on, christmas dramas and college events are going on. Or at least for me. It has been a tiring nevertheless exciting time seeing how frustrated myself can be at times when exams are near and you have responsibilities in church at the same time, seeing the smiles and laughters on your friends' faces, seeing hearts united as one, many 'hiccups' as well but God was in control. It was such a joy to serve God though I struggled so sooo much this month in putting God first above my exams. Yes, exams. I tried handling and accepting tasks which I can do on my own strength and said NO to other tasks coz I just wanted to have time to just relax off and study for exams.

One week before exams, my masterplan was to stay home- chill and focus on finals. But on that week, was the packed worship practises for camp (thank God for each of them who never really complained. They are awesome!). Also, drama practises which I initially refused to join. Till Siemens asked me again, then God spoke to my heart it's like you either accept me or reject me. Of course, knowing if this is what God wants I'll join. In my heart, I was really thinking God this is so crazy! Exams next week, Lord! I'm not even ready... Later on, during practice Aunty Karine who was in charged of the drama asked if I can be in charged of the signboards for props though I thought she asked the wrong person coz firstly, standing beside me is Sheryn- the creative girl in arts! Secondly, exams! In the end, I said, CAN. Coz I know God led me to this drama practice. But thank God, 2 days before the real Christmas drama, I brought it to cell and Sheryn, Fee Vien and some aunties helped. God surely will make a way when you are doing things according to His will. So in the end, done! yay.. that's 13 dec btw..

Finals- 16th Dec..

In between those dates, coordinate time for practice and attend worship practice, study a lil and feeling so weared out..

But guess what?!

God has been so good and merciful to me. I realized one thing this year or actually since I started to serve God more and more, God has given me this ability to study and remember facts of chapters whenever I spend time studying even if it's a few days before exams. I thought it was just that time, but after many exams, I realized God has blessed me with this ability to store alot of information as effectively as studying earlier. God redeemed my time that whenever I study, my mind is very focused.

I have alot more to share, what I've shared is only 1/4 of what happened in December for my life. If you want to know more, you can ask me. Can't write all. teehee!

Anyway, I would like you to drop by for our last Sunday of the year service. If you would still like to celebrate Christmas (okay, maybe not Christmas, but New Year) but you think its too late, scrap that thought off coz.... you still can! Drop by Grand Dorsett Hotel (formerly known as Sheraton Hotel) directly opposite @ SS12 this Sunday 10:30am. It's never too late to give your heart to Jesus. I'll be leading worship this Sunday. We'll be singing You Raised Me Up. Yup, by Josh Groban. God has indeed raised us up this year I believe, drawing us closer to the plans He has for our life, seen and unseen.

Have a wonderful Christmas! Christmas isn't Christmas until it happens in your heart- the story of the birth of Jesus that came to this world because He loves us. There's no greater love than one who can give His life for you.

Come! Come and you will not regret if you have found this love without condition. Hope to see you =)

Blessed Christmas again ya'll!

Grieving with hope.

Spending 10 minutes to blog. =)

Today, I've received a heart-wrenching news- Uncle Joseph Lim (Calvin's and Collin's dad) passed away. Aunty Wendy and Hon Wei forwarded the message to pray for him when we received the news that he fell from the roof right to the drain. Apparently, he was fixing the leakage on his roof.

Tears rolled down my cheeks as soon as I received the news that he passed away not too long after I received the message to pray for him. It's like I almost couldn't believe it as it happened way too fast to actually think again that he's no longer here. I just saw him on Sunday, which was 3 days ago.

I can't believe it.

I still can't!



But I want to thank God for this gift- Uncle Joseph Lim. He has always been one of the nice guys in church who will randomly go up front to sing a song for his wife while strumming a guitar or even for guest speakers like Pastor Ann. I think many will remember him for his gentle and kind soul within him. Even right now, I have no idea why but a peace within my heart assuring me that he is happy in heaven. I know God orders Uncle Jo's steps. Every step of the way. May the God of all comfort comfort his family at this moment of time. My deepest and heartfelt condolence to Aunty Stephanie, my youth friends- Calvin and Collin and their sister.

Uncle Jo's legacy as High Praise King of Rock and Roll (a.k.a. Elvis Presley) will continue to live in our hearts.

Life is way too fragile. Treasure every moment you have with your loved ones- people who are precious to you... before it's too late!